Thursday, December 27, 2007


I really hate ambiguity, but I think a lot of times it is something people create all on their own. The best way to avoid it, is just to talk about shit. If you want to know something ask it. If you want to make an awkward situation less awkward, talk about it.. Life is too short for us to sit and wonder why. That is why I often say to people, I don't play by the rules. Who the fuck needs rules? Everybody is different, we all react different ways to the same situations. People say don't do this, you should do this...I say, DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY!!

Monday, December 24, 2007

Say What You Feel...

I'm a firm believer in saying what you feel and what you believe. You really do have nothing to lose and you will live your life regretting that you never said anything. That's no way to LIVE.
So on that note:
here is a quote from my most favorite author:

"Be who you are
and say what you feel
because those who mind don't matter,
and those that matter, don't mind"


Sunday, December 23, 2007

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Thursday, December 13, 2007


People just suck, I think that is my official human decision. And maybe it is not that people suck, maybe it is just that some people can't see beyond the bubble they've created around themselves to acknowledge the fact that the world doesn't revolved around them. Don't get me wrong, ALL people don't suck, but there is a percentage of society out there that truly does suck. There are just simple courtesy's that one should be able to expect in a life time, that because other people are ignorant to it, can't.
Really, just once, it would be nice if people realized how their actions effect others.
That's all
I'm out!

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

"Where The Streets Have No Name...."

My friend sent this to me and it made think about all the possibilities that are out there. This is soo cool that this person is having all these amazing experiences!

"What can I say? This is truly yet another experience of a lifetime.

I have canoed on the Orange River, which divides South Africa and Namibia, and seen the rare Goliath Heron take flight immediately in front of me.
I have driven stick shift on the wrong side of the road with my friend Hillary GAGGING with laugther.
I have camped under a 500-year-old acacia tree ridden with all manner of songbirds.
I have slept in a hammock under a canopy of stars (all completely visible since there is minimal light reflection out in the desert). You haven't stargazed until you've done so from a desert.
I have endured crazy, windy sandstorms blowing straight through our campsite, depositing POUNDS of sand everywhere.
I have bonded with my very fun group of Aussies, Kiwis, and Brits. To the point of ALL 10 of us SKYDIVING above the Namib desert...absolutely stunning and incredible experience.
I have swum in the frigid-but-turquoise beaches of beautifully set Cape Town.
I have climbed Dune 45 in Sossusvlei at 5 in the morning to watch the sun rise over the red sands.
I have been airborne whilst quad-biking on the vast expanse of dunes near Swakopmund.
I have wandered just about every kind of desert available, and recognising how precious water resources are in this world.
I have woken up next to jackals, baboons, and oryx, ravaging through our trash for food.
I have sat atop our truck with a cold beer in hand, while watching the sun set over Fish River Canyon, 3rd largest in the world.
I have learned that oysters are best eaten with a dash of salt and pepper, a squeeze of lemon, 3 drops of tabasco, and a splash of tequila before pouring it down ones throat.
I have danced the night away at discos playing nothing but Africa dance music to very enthusiastic crowds.

And the best part? This is only half-way over! In an hour we head off to go bush camping in a very spiritual place...Spitzkoppe. After that we head to the various game parks and reserves and experience true wildlife (I am EXCITED about gazing at majestic elephant herds!). Then Bots and Zim (the overlander terms for Botswana and Zimbabwe).

Before we reach Bots, though, we will camp near a school/orphanage, where we will interact with the local children properly, and provide them with a little love and happiness, perhaps a soccer game (I will let them win, of course!). I'm very much looking forward to that.

I feel very connected to this continent right now. And to myself. And life in general. Imagine listening to U2's Joshua Tree while hanging out the window of a large truck, feeling absolutely content, fulfilled, and appreciative of all things that have happened thus far in life...that's me right now. If only I could share this with all the ones I love, like, and honour. Hopefully one day I will get to. For now, however, this is mine, and I will enjoy it for what it is and what it is doing to my spirit.

To all those having bad weeks: hang in there. They won't last. There are too many no-named streets waiting to be explored, experienced, absorbed, to focus on the little things.

To all those having great weeks: I am with you in spirit, and hope to join you in person very soon.

Internet is a rarity in these parts, so next you hear from me is probably when I get back. I'm also sending this to random peeps, so feel free to forward to anyone at all interested."

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Circle of Life

Becca's Circle of Life
....sponsored by J. Driver

you talk, i listen, he learns, good plan


Sunday, November 11, 2007

A Clamp For My Head

This is the bajillionith sunday in a row that I have woken up and immediately have had to direct my attention towards my head. Today marked an official turning point though. I came to the realization that I need to buy a clamp for my head because the amount of pressure my head is letting out needs to be matched.

Don't worry, I too find it kind of funny that my initial reaction is not to stop drinking as uch, but to buy a clamp!!

I have to get back to nursing my hangover (yes it is 9 pm at night!)

Monday, November 05, 2007

Kind Words From Kim

First off many congrats to you Kim!!!
Second, here is the nicest thing anyone has said to me in a long time:
"bottom line your freakin cool. so that drives men crazy"
Thank you, it's nice to hear that!

Colbert For President!!!!!!!!!1

"I am offended by reality all the time."

Sunday, November 04, 2007


I am absolutely, positively, continuously astonished by how selfish people can be. I think it astonishes me to no end because I am CONSTANTLY thinking about other people's feelings. I actually wonder often how someone could spend so much time thinking about one's self. Does that truly make people happy? I'm fairly certain that we were not all put on this earth to fend for ourselves, rather to work together, to be one huge community, working together to improve the world for generations to come.
*We were certainly not put here to kill other people, war should be banished.*
*We were not put here to make others feel inferior, All men are created equal. *
*We were not put here to be overworked and undervalued. You should always work to live, not live to work.*
*We were not put here to have any regrets; everything you do, every feeling you have, everywhere you have been is an experience, good or bad. These experiences make us who we are.*
*On that note, it is not about the experience, but rather what you do with the experience, how you react, that truthfully makes you the person that you are.*
*We are not here to live in solitude. You should never feel alone, there is always someone, somewhere you can go.*
Always remember, you are someone! Everyone has a purpose, a reason for being here.

So back to my original reason for posting, people's selfishness. I just have to again ask HOW?!? How do you get like that? How do you live like that? How can you not care about other people's feelings and other people's happiness? How do you not think about how your actions can affect someone else? The problem is that life should be fun, FOR EVERYONE! And your selfishness is making it impossible for life to be fun for anyone. That is so not fair! Maybe walk a mile in someone else's shoes, and see how it feels....

To sum it up, if you are constantly thinking about yourself and you are the only one you think about, in the end that's where you will be...ALL ALONE

Monday, October 08, 2007

Lots Of Yelling..

After being in florida for 9 days and watching my grandfather die and then having a funeral, I was (and am) beyond ready to get back home in new york city. I got to the airport 2 hours early with my sister and her boyfriend who were also flying Spirit Airlines (worst airline ever!) back to chicago. After waiting for a little bit in the terminal together we found out that both of our flights were delayed, along with about 4 or 5 other Spirit flights. My 8:05 pm departure time turned into 9:15 pm. Their 8:20 pm departure time turned into 9:15 pm as well. When the time to board comes around they start boarding and my flight is still waiting for a plane to arrive, so we get pushed back to 9:30 pm. 9:30 pm quickly became 9:50. Finally, a plane arrived, passengers deplaned and there was a quick clean-up and boarding. All is good right, SOOO NOT RIGHT!! After most of the passengers are seated the captain gets on the speaker and tells us that there is a mechanical problem and it should be no more then 10 minutes for them to look at and get paperwork done for it, fine, after this long what's 10 minutes. Well, a little bit after that the captain gets back on the speaker and tells us that our flight can no longer land at LaGuardia airport and we are now going to be landing at JFK, didn't make a difference, but oh my gosh the YELLLING that followed that was insane. So many people were yelling. The captain said to call whomever we needed to call and let them know and then we were on our way. A few minutes,and a LOT of crazy yelling, later the captain gets back and asks the yelling passengers to calm down so we can take off, also letting us know that if we do not take off in the next 14 minutes we will have exceeded some FAA regulations and would not be able to take off at all...
So this 14 minutes comes and goes and in the interim of it you hear the wheels of the plane attempting to turn, already I am thinking I would rather get off the plane because I just don't think it's going to make it. (This is not pessimism, but just the nature of my flight experiences!) So the captain gets on and tells the flight attendants to disarm the doors. Ironically, they look shocked that this is what's hapening. Then the captain gets back on the intercom and says that because people couldn't calm down and get in their seats that we surpassed this 14-minute-time limit and would not be able to take off. Imagine what happened next.....that's right YELLING...Now, I am not a fan of spirit airlines, BUT i will also say that the same people that were yelling, are the SAME people that wouldn't shut the hell up and it made it harder for us to go anywhere. In the process of all this, people have their cell phones out taking videos and are screaming, CALL CNN, I'm calling my congressman. Honestly, why can't people just accept that somethings in life are unavoidable. Sometimes, you just have to say you know what, I know this sucks, not just for me, but for EVERYONE involved, and I am going to suck it up and handle it like the grown up that I am.
Nope, that is not a common mentality. Maybe people need to hang out more with my friend mary jane and then it would be but whatever!

Anyway, we finally all deplane and they tell us to go to the ticket counters where they said they had rallied all the ticket agents. We get there, and for a good 15-20 minutes, there is not a single ticket agent or airline representative to be found.
I decide to call my fam, have them come pick me up, book a flight on another airline for the next morning and call it a night. I started to get my refund on the phone and then found out that I could go this line, which i thought was going to be easier. Ohhh was i wrong...Not only was it slow, BUT this man was determined to make it difficult for everyone. He was there with his fam, but needed to ask a question, he went to ask a question and then the airline representative went to find out the answer, however he was in the way of the other passengers getting their refunds so the ticket agent asked him to move, to which he responded with yelling. So security comes out and they are trying to calm him down, then this women in line starts yelling at the security people to stop yelling at him, so now they are asking her to please calm down. She is all riled up, he is all riled up and then this other woman decides to start yelling at the security guards for trying to calm down this woman who is screaming at them about screaming at this other man.

Needless to say, this was not a happy end to an already terrible week. But hey, at least it provided me something to blog about right? Oh and it was also the tipping point in convincing my parents that a private jet IS the way to go!!

PS. if you google spirit airlines flight 710 you will get some good articles about it.

Monday, October 01, 2007


I heart Heroes!! I missed it all during the first season and am currently watching season 1 and I am a huuuuuge fan!! Such a great show, so well done. I am looking forward to finishng season one and and starting to watch season 2. I am officially on the bandwagon! If you don't watch I highly recommend doing so!

Saturday, September 29, 2007

bad things come in 3s

they say bad things come in 3s right? AM I FRIGGIN DONE YET, OR ARE WE NOW ONTO MULTIPLES OF 3?!?! cut me some slack PLEASE

I want to be a kid again

"There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go." ~Author Unknown

Truthfully, growing up kinda sucks. I want to go back to the days where I didn't have to worry about anything, wasn't afraid of this and that, really just freedom of the mind! I will however say that at least growing up you get to learn who you really are, what life is all about, see new things, meet new people and make new marks on the world. So maybe it doesn't suck, but right now, at this very moment (at 6:40 am on a saturday morning sitting on the airport floor) I just want to be a kid again.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007


What is that saying, "people always want to kick you when you're down." What is that all about??!!? What kind of a person wouldn't want to help pick you back up? You know, pay it forward. Why is that people find it so much easier to make someone's life a living hell as opposed to helping that out. You know where this wouldn't happen, on my PRIVATE ISLAND that i will someday move to!
Thought of the day: People need to just suck it up.
"Those who matter don't mind
and those who mind, don't matter."
-Dr. Seuss

Sunday, September 23, 2007


what exactly is a secret? There are the secrets people keep from eachother. In all honesty, what is the point of that?!? Isn't it better just to say how you feel, or tell people the truth? Oh if only it were that easy, imagine that, imagine if you could just say what you feel and be done with it. Imagine the mental and emotional weights that would be lifted there. I am an honest person, especially these days. I just wish our society was set up in a way that you could just say what you want. I think maybe it is more about the fact that I hate ambiguity, I hate not knowing, which is probably why I wanted to be a journalist early on in life, I wanted to be in the know. I always say, I am on a need-to-know basis and I need to know everything. Someday, someday we will get there.
There are also the secrets people keep from themselves. But my question/observation is, are you really keeping the secret from yourself, or is it denial. Do we deny things, feelings to protect ourselves from getting hurt? It's to hard in many situations to open up and feel something, because what if you get hurt, what if it doesn't work out.
MEH, you know what i only live once, better to have tried and failed then never to have tried at all.

Saturday, September 15, 2007


why is it that if you never have something, you never want it, but once you have something you continue to want it...hmmm?!?! Life is weird like that.
random thought of the day....but here are some more quotes I like!

Murphy's Law
The first myth of management is that it exists.

Olive Schreiner
My feeling is that there is nothing in life but refraining from hurting others, and comforting those who are sad.

Wizard of Oz
Hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable.

Richard Bach
If you love something, set it free; if it comes backs it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was.

Do you love me because I am beautiful, or am I beautiful because you love me?

Joan Crawford
Love is a fire. But whether it is going to warm your heart or burn down your house, you can never tell.

Saturday, September 08, 2007

Funny T-Shirt Sayings

This came from I believe

1. Funny T Shirt Saying
Procrastinate Now

2. Funny T Shirt Saying
All men are idiots And I married their king.

3. Funny T Shirt Saying
In America Anyone Can Be President That's One of the Risks You Take.

4. Funny T Shirt Saying
Hard work has a future payoff Laziness pays off now.

5. Funny T Shirt Saying
Where there's a will... I want to be in it.

6. Funny T Shirt Saying
EARTH FIRST! We'll strip-mine the other planets later.

7. Funny T Shirt Saying
Alcohol and calculus don't mix. Never drink and derive.

8. Funny T Shirt Saying
I wear the brains in the family.

9. Funny T Shirt Saying
No sense in being pessimistic It wouldn't work anyway!

10. Funny T Shirt Saying
I'm sorry My fault I forgot you were an idiot.

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Friendship Quotes

it's amazing sometimes to just sit back and observe. In fact, I don't even need to sit back, i'm an active observer, always had a natural love for psychology. People say actions speak louder than words, funny how that works out. I could go on, but I won't right now.....
Here are some quotes about friendship for you...

Some of my new favorite quotes....
"A friend is someone, who upon seeing another friend in immense pain, would rather be the one experiencing the pain than to have to watch their friend suffer."
Amanda Grier

"Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light."
Helen Keller

Ralph Waldo Emerson
Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.

The Usual Suspects
Kobayashi: One cannot be betrayed if one has no people.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

quotes of the night..

Quote 1:
Amy: "Someday your emotions will just shut off"

Quote 2:

Dustin: (to laura) "You married me, it's your problem now!"

Quote 3:
An even drunker Dustin: (to random person on the street, in an attempt to take care of me) "Hey Whitey, don't look at her, she's my sister!"

What I'll miss.............

I've been home in MD for barely 1 day and I already have a list of things I will miss in a week:
my pool, my luxury life-style, the balcony, my car,the clean metro and the sign that counts down to the second when the next train will be here, california tortilla, rori, nights out, laura, dustin, amy, josh, my own CLEAN bathroom, carpeting, a stocked kitchen, the suburbs, the fam(most of the time), my bed, in-home washer and dryer, mom to do the washing and the drying, time, space, and the cusp of sanity.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Post Secret Mini Movie


Another Top 10..













Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Jamie Just Made My Day

JamieMorph (12:52:54 PM): oh joyous day indeed!
JamieMorph (12:53:23 PM): God is so gangsta
JamieMorph (12:53:44 PM): (that's from Big Brother 8 in case you don't watch)

The rest of the conversation doesn't even matter, JAMIE, YOU ARE FUCKING AWESOME :)

Quarter-Life Crisis

craaaaaaaaaaaappp is really all that i can say right now, BUT these inpsirational quotes say sooooo much more....

"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within." -Elizabeth Kubler Ross

"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter." - Martin Luther King Jr.

Monday, August 06, 2007

Where Did He Come From Cotton Eyed Joe......

For anyone who hasn't seen are missing out :)

Lesson Of The Day

Here is your lesson of the day by Josh Rao:

"Multi-tasking is just a distraction unless you're being doubly productive."

He told me to write that down, so I thought I would share it with everyone!


Monday, July 30, 2007

The Top 10.....

10) Maybe, just maybe, not EVERYONE is in as big of a rush as you are

9) Standing in the middle of the street, isn't going to make the light change ANY faster

8) If everyone who got on the subway just filed in like normal, considerate, polite people, we wouldn't all have to feel like we were packed in like sardines now would we?!?

7) Although people in middle america can't vote for shit, maybe adopting some of their polite ways wouldn't be such a bad idea.. a little excuse me here, an i'm sorry there, can I hold that door for you?!? Nothing out of the ordinary

6) Life has got to be better than pouring your blood, sweat and tears into your work only to have to take a vast majority of your earnings and put it into those 2x4's we call home!

5) Everything is Relative

4) There is life outside of these city limits, a world that exists outside of New York

3) Just because you live in NYC doesn't mean that it is any less weird when you put the contents of your closet together in ways that only the cutest child could get away with

2) It's ok to need to a break from this crazy city


1) Pot Happens :)

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

i hate bugs

I decided that I would suck it up and do my own laundry, (i normally do, but hadn't done it in forever) So, i'm waiting for the first load to dry, reading Harry Potter and something caught my eye, so I looked down. There it was, possibly the biggest bug I have ever seen in my life.....A COCKROACH.. That thing was seriously bigger than I am. Needless to say, I have some pretty wet clothes hanging around my apartment, but at least i don't have a giant cockroach. EEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW, i'm so disturbed by the cockroach, eeeewww, eeewwwww eeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

Monday, July 23, 2007

Post Secret

This is the greatest coffeetable book ever, it is under my nightstand, but still, the best book ever. and the website gets new updates every sunday!! check it out


Ok, well the Title hopefully got all the screaming out of me. There are soooo many things I want to write about, but I think I will stick to cynicism. Recently I went to the airport and when I got there I realized I didn't have my license, or any photo identification......PROBLEM, right? Yeah, no, not-so-much apparently. I went to security with my pre-printed boarding pass and asked what I do if I have like 500 forms of other ID, but nothing with a picture on it. They told me to go to the ticket counter and they will take care of it. Still, I'm thinking, this is going to be a huge problem. I get to the ticket counter, explain the situation and the guy goes, no problem, I show him ONE, just ONE form of id and they give me a new boarding pass that basically says I will be getting pulled aside and checked. So I go back to security, go through the line and get pulled aside and quickly checked. So, we are living post 9-11 where, generally speaking, security is pretty high. Bullshit, I didn't have any photo id and you barely even looked up at me, and certainly didn't ask me any questions, and then just let me on the plane. That doesn't make me feel all that comfortable about my safety at airports (or anywhere) 'bout you?

Sunday, July 22, 2007


..even in this summer heat, I can feel the chill that's in the air.....

Looking For A Bellhop

After a lot of thought and conversation, there has been a group decision that what i need, is a bellhop.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007


So, i'm in the pondering mood, which always leads to lots of why's? I was going to say what if's? but im not a big fan of what if's, you only live once, may as well lead a life of no regrets. I can honestly say in my entire existence I only have one real regret, and I think that's a pretty good place to be. Ok, this is not at all where I wanted this train of thought to go.....

I was talking to one of my closest friends tonight, and she said something that really made me think about how we all perceive things. Think about it like this, you go out with 2 other friends, one of you gets really really drunk, whomever got that drunk made a fool of themselves, and was an ass to the other two. The two, less drunk friends are annoyed by the friends behavior, and by extension their night was ruined because they had to "babysit" drunky over there. The next day you all wake up and are recounting the night, Drunky thinks the night was sooooo much fun, a little holes that need to be filled in, but overall their night was a 10. The friends are thinking, wow, I can't believe she thinks last night was that much fun, she made a complete fool of herself, and we had to take care of her, overall our nights were about a 4. Years down the road when they all think back on that night, it will be very different for everyone, and although Drunky remembers having a great time, she won't remember how it made her friends feel. I feel like i just experienced something a lot like that, with drastically different circumstances. All i know at this moment is that my recollection of that time is much more on point. HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Monday, March 19, 2007


..and just as soon as it came to an end, the circle began around again....

Thursday, March 15, 2007

stepping stones

"once in a while we get shown the light in the darkest of places..."
and once in a while out of nothing comes something.
just when you think you finally have it all down, a wind comes sweeping through and knocks it all over and you have to start from the beginning...again!
Life and our experiences really are this perpetual circle, no idea where they start and end, you get half way around and have to go back and now you don't know if you are going forward or backwards.
My advice, tread lightly, for the faster and deeper you go, the more it hurts when you fall.